It's Fall

Love this cooler weather.  There is something very comforting in snuggling between nice soft sheets with a down comforter on top, keeping me warm.  I would much rather have a warm man with me, but I'll take the down comforter until I find the guy [which, BTW, I expect to find this weekend...I GOTTA DATE!!!].

Oh, and about that date.  It's the guy I wrote about a few weeks back.  The 43 YO with whom I had a really pretty great time.  He called me Friday, and wanted to plan something for this weekend, so we did.  I think I will splurge a bit, and hope that it turns out well.  I am very confident.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch!!  I haven't been active lately at all.  Just not quite feeling like I want to go out and explore much.  Although I did find a guy Saturday night who was a lot of fun.  It was one of those meet-ups that was disappointing at first.  You know, the kind where the expectations far outweigh the actual live body when you first see him?  But, instead of writing it off, I decided to chat with him a bit, and have a drink before bailing.

As it turned out, we had a pretty nice time.  He isn't my first pick, but he is a real person, and has real needs, and is very earnest about it.  Plus, I must admit that anytime a guy truly admires my dick, I let him.  Just makes me feel good.

It saddens me that a few of my blogger buddies have had some rough times recently.  Loki from http://lokis-log.blogspot.com/ for one.  And some really good news from Sean at http://justajeepguydc.blogspot.com/ although it seemed like a rough year to get to this point.  Read about it on their blogs.

This guy could make my day anytime.

Happy Autumn to all.

Sean's TMI Thursday

Sean from http://justajeepguydc.blogspot.com/ has been doing TMI Thursday where he asks questions and asks his readers to answer them in comments, or here in their blog.  For this week....  
1. Do you still go to the movies? Why or Why not.
Occasionally, but rarely.  Just too many other options to see a good movie.
2. Would you go by yourself?
Not crazy about seeing a movie alone.  No.
3. What was the last movie you saw? Recent recommendation?
The Avengers.  The kids made me go.  I thought it was a movie about a British spy team.
Recommend?  Yeah, if you like a lot of action with not much of a plot.
4. Snacks: Buy, Bring or Boycott?
Buy a drink but the rest of that crap is really bad for you.
5. Teenagers used to go to the movies to make out. Have you ever and if so, when was the last time?
Sure, but not to a movie theater, we did that at the drive-in theater...shows you how old I am.  But, I never got to home plate there, but to third base quite often, with a gal.
6. Have you ever gone to an adult movie theater? Did you pull a Pee Wee Herman?
Never been.
Bonus
Which all-time favorite movie would you pay to see on the big screen again? Of course cell phones, babies, and assholes are banned.
I'm not much of a movie guy, as you can tell, but I absolutely loved WHERE EAGLES DARE, the 1968 movie with Richard Burton and Clint Eastwood that was set in Germany during WWII.

Back in the Saddle

It doesn't take long to get out of a funk.  Just need the right guy(s) to help with it.

Friday night was a real bust...had an evening without obligations, and surely I could find someone who wanted a little fun...but it was not to be.

Saturday...in a real funk...really just expected to read a little, GRINDR a little, and maybe hit the porn sites.  I just love it when I have no expectations of a hookup and I find one.  And, he turned out to be a really nice one...43 YO who was in town visiting some family, but at a hotel for the evening.  He invited me over, and, of course, I went.  No expectations...we did not even discuss sexual preferences.  I really just wanted some company.

We spent more than the typical time talking...family, hometowns, BFs, [or not], and even some sports [he wasn't much of a fan].
Our drinks were empty [I brought one with me] and it was time for a bathroom break as well.  After my time in the bathroom, I turned around and looked at him.  He looked like he really needed a kiss.  I was right...he did.

I spent the night.
We made each other very happy.
It was fun...although we didn't get much sleep [was it fun BECAUSE we didn't get much sleep?].

Exchanged phone numbers, and then even agreed to meet for coffee after showers, and on his way out of town.  For an hour or so, I thought he had bailed on me, but he finally called, and had just fallen asleep in the chair.  I am pretty sure we will see each other again.  He is a great guy.

Monday morning, a great guy from Tennessee was visiting [and yes, he even had orange underwear... a true VOL fan.]  His profile said TNcocksucker.  ...and he lived up to his profile.  ...a really great kisser, and a superb cocksucker.

Then, a regular guy...my favorite guy in the world...wanted to stop by.  He had grown a goatee and a beard...short...looked fantastic.  Another great kisser.  I sleep tonight a happy, sated man.

No, it wasn't Michael Weiss....but just as great looking.  

When it rains, it pours.

THINGS A GUY NEEDS TO KNOW TO GET ALONG IN THE GAY WORLD

1.  How to act interested without seeming desperate.
2.  How to learn GAYDAR.
3.  Learn that 'Sure, we should do that sometime' actually means 'No way, bro.'
4.  Understand that even though a guy is OUT, he has a problem other OUT guys knowing his first name.
5.  Don't take rejection personally.
6.  Understand that every interaction has a very slim chance of culminating in anything real.
7.  Realize that not every gay man is nice, and not every straight guy is an ass.
8.  Remember, when a married guy starts telling you how in love he is with you, he doesn't mean it.

I'm sure you guys can add more than this.  How about it?

Sean from http://justajeepguydc.blogspot.com/ has been doing TMI Thursday where he asks questions and asks his readers to answer them in comments, or here in their blog.  For this week....  

1. What is your plan for a good first date? 
Typically has included dinner of some sort...maybe a nice restaurant...not super fancy or expensive...just a nice local place that has really great food.  Then a nightcap...share a bottle of wine...in front of the fire in the winter...and spend the rest of the evening chatting, touching, getting comfortable.
2. Where do you go looking for dates, not hookups? Do you even date?  
I have had a little success getting dates from the hookup sights, but just a little.  Aside from that, I have no avenue for dating.  I do date some...not as much as I would like.
3. Sex on the first date?
Maybe.  But not necessary.  I do expect a kiss or two.
4. For those married or in a LTR, do you have Date Nights?
N/A
5. Have you ever been set up on a blind date? How'd it go?
I have refused.

Wanted: FRIENDS

Taking a break.
Yep...decided to back off a little.  Not from the sex, just from writing about it.  

I seem to have a lot of personal issues...issues with self esteem and self confidence.  Is that typical?  Do others suffer with similar bouts of depression?  

I have met some really great guys through blogs.  Some I like a lot, some I liked too much, but none whom I have met except my good friend from Richmond...name shall remain anonymous.  He has truly been an inspiration to me.  We have a lot of similar issues, but are in a different place with the family situation.

I really, really want to be OUT.  But, I am really scared to do it.  As difficult as things are now, I could not stand to lose any of those precious few straight friends that I have.  And, as much as I feel close to the gay/bi guys I have met through the blog, GRINDR, Adam4Adam, and others, I have no reason to believe they will be there to rescue me from the depths of depression when it occurs.  

I recently met a guy on GRINDR who lives close to me.  He is out, partnered, but still on GRINDR.  I am not exactly sure why, but I usually don't question what others' morality is...I have enough problems figuring out my own.  And, when I say we met, I mean we MET...we did not suck, fuck, kiss, or even shake hands.  We met to go for a run together.  He may have once thought there could be more to it, but if he did, he decided differently after we met.  
Anyway, we have done a few 'friend' things together...again...all with clothes on, and things we would not ever be arrested for anywhere.  At one point during a 'few-hour-long' car trip, I told him my whole story...marriage, divorce, bi, gay or whatever, after which he vehemently insisted my ex is a real bitch and should be shot.  My whole point is, that I think we got a little closer, emotionally, than before.  

I have realized through all of this, that what I really need are friends...true friends.  It felt really good to tell him about me, my side of the story.  But, after we parted, I realized that I had imposed on him a bit...had laid all of my problems on his lap expecting [or hoping] he could help with them.  Not fair to him.  That was a lot more than he signed up for.

Maybe what I need is a best friend who I can reveal all secrets to.  I also realized that thru 25+ years of marriage, I devoted virtually all of my time to my family...wife and kids...and none to me, and I was not a best friend to anyone.  I let all of my relationships erode.  And that makes me very sad.  

WANTED:  FRIENDS

Sean's TMI Thursday

Sean from http://justajeepguydc.blogspot.com/ has been doing TMI Thursday where he asks questions and asks his readers to answer them in comments, or here in their blog.  For this week.... 

No great adventures here...I really do lead a boring life.

1. Worst experience you ever had in a car? (not including accidents)
Non-sexual:  I was in FL with a high school/college friend who is a bit OCD, and is also very claustrophobic.  We were on the Atlantic side, and had been driving for quite a while, just checking out bars and the like.  I saw from the map [before GPS] that the shortest way back was through a tunnel under the inland waterway.  We were low on money and gas, and I thought --erroneously-- that I could be in and out of the tunnel before he really realized what was going on.  He damn near wrecked us when he saw the road dip into the tunnel under the water.
Sexual:  A very close call...had picked up a 20 YO and was parked near a state forest for a little sucking.  I saw a state trooper go past us...not sure if he saw us or not, but decided to go on and leave.  We got on the road, and just past the next turn, he passed us since he had turned around and was headed back to check out our parked car.  That was way too close for comfort.  

2. Driver or navigator?I have to do both!!! Type A, you know.

3. Planes, trains or automobiles?
Love them all...for obviously different reasons.

4. Best road trip?1980...Florida tour...with a straight bud...Not out, but still had a great time... he got his women, and I got my man...first visit to a gay bar... And he was none the wiser.

5. What's the farthest you've gone in a car? Sex, not distance.A car was the only private place we had for a long time.  But still only ever got to second...maybe third base with a girl or a guy.  
Bonus
What kind of car do you drive? What kind do you dream of?
Camry but I would look great in ....

2013 SL550 Roadster